Thursday, January 17, 2008


Soooo.... I titled this one "Untitled" because I'm not quite sure what to call it at this time.(by the way this post is going to be explicit and sexual in nature, so those who can't handle that, please don't continue to read).

So anywho, I wrote a post similar to this one about a year ago. I was having some issues with sexual roles, and to be perfectly honest, I still am. Here's my take on sex. On paper, it's great! In my mind, it's great! But, in the bedroom, I don't know how I feel.... Now don't get me wrong, I love sex! I love sensuality, I love touching, feeling, kissing, cuddling, etc., but when I comes to penetration, let's just say the record scratches and the music stops.
Now in my last post, I talked about the same thing. Bottoming is such a chore for me, and I'm not sure I like this chore for which I am not receiving an allowance. Now, I have tried topping before, but I just didn't enjoy it as much. I felt like something was missing.

Bottoming to me is just a whole lot of work that I'm not sure that I really want to put in (lol no pun intended). Ok, not only do bottoms have to make sure their "insides" are clean, which in some cases means not eating the entire day... but we also have psychologically wrap our minds around the fac that someone's penis is going to be in our ass.... it's a lot to handle.

Now I know and can admit to the fact that I'm not the most versed or edjucated in the sex department, but I do know a little somethin somethin, but what I don't understand is, why does there have to be penetration anyway? The thing I love about being gay, is the fact that I don't have to "act straight" or do "straight things". Penetration is such a straight thing to me, so, I don't know why I should take part in it.

Am I totally on this plane by myself??


Cocoa Rican said...

Actually, it doesn't HAVE to be about penetration, oral or anything else for that matter. It has everything to do with what works for you and what turns you wouldn't hurt if it also got you off. That said, many of us REALLY enjoy penetration. Personally, I'd feel I was just doing some foreplay if I didn't have penetration with my partner. It all boils down to what works for you and your partner. BTW - It has nothing to do with age or maturation, since I loved penetration at your age. So let me go ahead and close that loophole right now. LOL ; )

queerkidofcolor said...


the shade is beneath the surface.

find it.

Darius T. Williams said...

LOL -you're not alone. But, if you don't find someone who values how you feel on the subject and can appreciate sacrifice and may be alone. That's why it's so important to run across someone that you can build a foundation on something other than sex. That way when something comes and tests what you've built...your foundation can handle it.