Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Give Me A Reason

"As a warning, I'd just like to say that this post was conceived from a threesome that was had by myself, anger, and that bitch bitterness. I don't rally know where I'm going with this, so bear with me.

I'm sooo sick of having my fuckin feelings hurt. It's like I'm just a tarhge for that shit. It's like this beautiful man comes in on his white horse and his iron suit of armor, but in the end the iron turns out be aluminum foil.

In the beginning, you get all these "baby, I want to be with you forever" and "baby I will never hurt you" statements that aren't even worth shit.

To me it's like a used car salesman. He gels that hair back and puts on that brand new suit and coaxes you into buying a piece of shit car, and then when you drive it off the lot, the engine fails and the tranmission falls out!

And the part the sucks the most is, I'm always the one that holds up my end of the bargain. i'm always the one that communicates, shares emotions/feelings, take care of my significant other, etc. and I never get it back, and then my feelings are hurt.

Oh well, the freakum dress is comin out tonite.


Joey Bahamas said...

The key is not to become jaded. Because then you become a victim. I've been through this before and I've learned from it...informing my intuition and bettering my choices...

fuzzy said...

joey bahamas, I couldn't of said it better. Just get up and keep it movin! Its an experience that you will keep in mind on the next one!

Cash S. said...

Sorry to say, but it probably won't be the last time. It kind of comes with the terrority when you're on that journey to find "the 1". But, Joey Bahamas and Fuzzy are totally right. Hang in there man!

life said...

maybe you need to give yourself sometime before you put that freakum dress on. It sounds like there are some unresolved issues.

Cocoa Rican said...

Did you give it your all?
Were you open and honest?
Did you get back what you put in?
Once you answer those to your satisfaction, then your conscience is clear...
The next guy...and any/all the next guys after this shouldn't pay for it and you have to give yourself your best shot by being the Jared that folks love...when you least expect it the right one comes along...strangely it usually happens once you're at a point where you can appreciate him. Just don't become the asshole or the used car salesmen...otherwise this guy has already won.
My heart's with you pa

Darius T. Williams said...

Hmmm - I hate to say this, but I'm going to because I've been on both sides of the spectrum. You need these experiences - you're young and you've gotta understand that what's happening to you is life. As Walter Lee Younger says, "in this life momma you've got the takers and the tooken." And this couldn't be further from the truth.

Joey said it best. Don't become jaded. Learn how to channel that energy. Just because it feels good in the beginning doesn't mean it's really good realistically. Feeling good is something that passes. After the new car smell goes away, what's left other than the reality of a car note?

So, remember it happens. Take each experience as it comes. Take away nuggets of the experience that will mature you and help you grow and in the end, you come out the winner!

Um, make sure the high hills match that freakum dress!


PS - text me or call me - I have a new phone and don't have anyone's number.

Chet said...

I believe that you try hard to apply the old rule "do on to others as you have them do to you."

That doesn't always work, instead you have to toughen up and even dismiss certain people from your life, there is no way you should ever allow anyone to steal your joy.

Opinionated Diva said...

lol...I luv the way you ended the rant. Sounds like that freakum dress definitely needs to be aired out and worn. Hopefully you had a blast wearing it already since I'm late to the party.

PS: Don't waste your energy wondering why losers are losers. Just be glad the loser is GONE!

RocaFella07 said...

Ugh! You need to let his ass have it, and move on. You've been through too much just to please HIS ass! YOU have the right to be damn angry and tell him how you feel, and how he fucked up! Let out that steam.

You've read my blog, so I'm sure you know how jaded I am when it comes to love and men...DONT let that happen to you!